Embarrassed

Dear Lisa B,
                  The beauty about autism is that it doesn't choose race or financial status. I was just wondering how the celebrities or wealthy with severely autistic kids cope with all the disgusting sides of this disorder. Do they get anxiety about their elite circle of friends stopping by when they child just had a feces smear fest? Do they buy mattresses every time their kids soil them?.

                                                      This is one of my son's mattress ...

 It's day three of it being outside on my lanaii. I have scrubbed, rubbed, Febreezed, bleached, Gained.. I am so embarrassed because all the newly built homes overlooking our house are sold and occupied. The house directly overlooking our house which has been vacant for over a year just became occupied. I wonder what they are thinking of us? The ghetto family accross the way? Yeah I know I can't think of what people think of me but I have pride. I am really embarrassed. I can't afford to to buy a mattress every month. What am I supposed to do? I can't get angry with him because it's truly not his fault. I am so frustrated on top of that, I have anxiety that I will be written up by the HOA about it. It's stuff like this which causes people to be kicked out of their homes because it's breaking their laws. How frightening but what else can I do? Just another contributor to that constant brick on my chest that never goes away.